Out to Sea- Realizing I was actually going to go through a divorce.

I remember the moment. I remember the feeling. Like it was yesterday, although it was many years ago now. 

We had come to that point where no roads led anywhere. We were beyond the point of working it out. Nerves frayed, hearts broken, anger heavy in the air. It was time to say ENOUGH. It was time to face the truth that it was over. It was time to utter the word, DIVORCE. 

I remember running out to a small stand of woods in some random part of the neighborhood, maybe behind the nearby Bloomingdales. What was I doing here? Why was I running? How did I get here? Why was I lost? 

That feeling of being lost was exactly what I needed to feel in that moment. The words…”out to sea” came to me, and that’s exactly how it felt. Out to sea without a map or compass. Out on the rough ocean of life, with no tether, no ground, no safety net, no second mate (or captain, as I likely would have thought of him at that time). 

So, yes. The time had come to break free, and I had no idea what I would do. Where I would go. How I would get through this. 

But, I did. And, eventually, I found myself again. 

And, I got stronger, more powerful, more authentic and more free than I had ever been in my life.

My new story began there, in that stand of woods. Out to sea.

I found my way.

And so can you.

What I did next (and none of this happened overnight)

~figured out my living situation

~found a great lawyer

~started figuring out my finances

~started to believe in my career

~moved my body EVERYDAY!

~reached out to my support network

And, there’s more….but this was the beginning….

What will you do next? 

How is that out to sea feeling exactly what you need to be feeling right now?

Can I help?